ORIGINAL POST OCTOBER 8th 2005
" I am so tired of all these various conspiracy theories that are constantly thought up and imagined, so fed up with it, I'm now going to tell the truth and able to do so safely and relatively securely knowing that by the majority as coming from the source it indeed is, me in " Spirit " it is unlikely to be taken seriously or believed in anyway until it of course is proven to be the case and then here on my site it will be documented evidence of the fact, writtten before the official findings albeit revised as they will have to be are released publicly! So I will start by saying, I was the target and Dodi the victim!
I had been warned off my relationship with Dodi as it was considered something that was a liability to the establishment of the country as even unofficially royal, I remained the mother of one of it's future kings and back up King in the event of something happening making it impossible for him to ascend his rightful throne. It was not a relationship viewed with anymore welcome in the royal house itself as was being voiced privately by Prince Philip and was something that placed Her Majesty in an extremely awkward situation. Advised against renewing the Royal Warrants for the Harrods store owned by Dodi's father Mohamed, this was something that similarly as removing my title from me, would have meant loss of status and great embarrassment to him but would have been reason enough for his to be still refused British Nationality and a passport even if my relationship with his son Dodi flourished. In this event I faced the prospect of exile from the country in disgrace similar to that experienced by Edward who had abdicated his throne for the love of American divorcee Wallis Simpson and lived in France, indeed ironically in the house that Dodi and I visited our last weekend alive in Paris but worse Her Majesty having the jurisdiction over my boys and the power to forbid them from any association with me which I very much aware of was naturally something that caused me tremendous concern! I have to say though, had this decision been one officially made by her, it would not have been a personal one knowing the closeness of their bond with me but again something that unofficially she herself would have had little say in determining. It was all so unfair after all it having been my husband who had entertained a mistress and even before our marriage telling me he didn't love me! Yet even divorced from him my being expected to live my life behaving in a manner considered acceptable by those responsible for betraying me in so many ways, which in their view was not something I was seen to be doing in entertaining my relationship with Dodi.
The fact being that Dodi was Muslim and therefore any children we'd had would be directly connected to the British Royal Family, something that could have severe political implications which was not something desirable as well as the fact that Mohamed himself, an unpopular figure with them as well as the establishment would then be related to them in a powerful way. I'd spoken all about this to the Fayed's on the first holiday we spent together, so we were all of us aware of the difficulties ahead but as we showed more determined than ever to fight them illustrated by my taking a second and more intimate holiday with Dodi. Naturally making me an even more unpopular figure but by this time, I knew where I stood with that family and that nothing I did impressed them or altered how they felt about me as Princess Margaret had said of me at a private function, " We're glad to be rid of Diana " and of course all the staff of St. James Palace busy doing all they could to publicly discredit me in any way from insinuating I was medically unstable , even insane, to advising I be stripped of my royal patronage, to questioning my responsibility as a mother and to even spying on me in my very personal and private life and making sure their findings were publicised ie " Squidgy Tapes" etc, etc ....... as I say doing all they could and said to be done in the interests of the Monarchy and albeit National Security of the country which is why Dodi and I were indeed trailed by British Secret Intelligence in the summer of 1997, the spying on me becoming more intense as it was seen that our relationship looked like it was deepening into something more serious than a summer - fling as perhaps had been something initially thought by them. They knew me enough to know that had this been the case, I would not be behaving publicly in the way I was and so were indeed worried!
The Prince of Wales I do not believe to have been directly involved in this himself though naturally he too would have been made aware of everything, kept informed about it all but actually had himself very little power, if indeed any at all to prevent it's happening and would not have been unduly concerned about it as not being something at that time anyway directly affecting or threatening our children and he and I being divorced were appreciative and naturally understanding of our leading private lives. He was after all that same year doing his bit in bringing his then mistress out of the shadows into the public light albeit naturally cautiously so and at the time against great opposition making it an uncomfortable position for him to find himself in and particularly as the media seem fixed on promoting the romance between Dodi and myself. Our relationship posed a problem of great magnitude and one that needed therefore to be watched and scrutinised intensely which both Dodi and I were aware it was being but even we did not realise just how much danger we were putting ourselves in, not the full extent of it anyway or indeed perhaps we'd have thought twice about making it something quite so apparent. Well naturally, I as a mother now on reflection, most certainly would have done obviously!
I have also spoken about how my involvement with political issues albeit on an humanitarian level was not welcomed warmly by those not most personally affected by them but again how aware of this I was, it was not something which would deter me from direct and personal involvement in something I considered as being important and valuable work that I could be of benefit to with that involvement which made me determined to continue with it inspite of all opposition however powerful and threatening! I had learnt through all my personal trials to be a survivor and so it gave me tremendous pleasure having survived, to use the knowledge I'd gained from them to help others survive and that being the reason that it was to the causes of those less fortunate than myself in whatever way, that I personally felt most drawn to being of help and assistance in knowing from my own experience of suffering just how valuable it was for them to know ...... that someone honestly did care about what happened to them in a very real way and showed this by action and not by words alone and people recognising this I am convinced is why tremendous results were achieved in these areas, helped naturally by the medias focus and attention upon them.
Never the less though alive I was a problem, someone who of their own accord was not going to disappear as was most certainly wished by some but as I'd made publicly clear with my statement " She won't go quietly " in 1995, wasn't going to happen and therefore alternative measures had to be taken however dramatically and that being something I leave up to your imagination, not that I would imagine it being something you will have to think too hard about! "
DIANA
